Disheartened

On this hot Sunday afternoon,
I sit alone in my room
Infinite thoughts rushing through my head,
but one stands triumphant,
haunting me.

I am only human, still with emotions.
I may put a wall around me,
making me mighty and strong,
the moment that wall breaks down
i am like a vulnerable child.

I did this to myself,
i am the one to blame,
i never should have expected so much
i never should have hoped.
All i got was disappointment.

I never should have opened the wall,
even a tiny bit,
I wanted people to come in and they did
but no one told me or warned me,
that they could just as easily leave.